I'm in the process of losing someone who's been nothing but someone who loves me for who I am, and I've got to stop that. I've never shown so much rage to someone, and still have them tell me that they still love me at the end of it all. I don't want to lose him. It makes me want to cry just thinking about him walking away. And by then, I'd finally have the independence that I longed for, but honestly can not withstand without him.